Today is one of those days when I am feeling depressed without any reason. Maybe it’s PMS, may be it’s weather or may be it’s both..
And probably Zini too is affected by my mood. She has been clinging to me since morning and she becomes clingy when she is not feeling well. The fear that she is going to fall ill is making it worse. She is not sleeping well at night and keeps waking up at a regular interval which results in my interrupted sleep too.
The fact that my hand goes numb as well as I sleep is not helping either. Suddenly in the night I wake up with a hand that can’t be moved and which sometimes pains. When this happened in the past it was discovered that I had some Vitamins deficiency and as a result I was taking Vitamin tablets. Which I stopped taking when I got insanely busy last year.
Though I’ve restarted the medicines, there isn’t much improvement. Which resulted in a visit to doctor yesterday. Who has asked me to get so many tests done. May be I am afraid of what will be the outcome of the tests. But I didn’t feel this way yesterday then why am I all gloomy today? The fact that I am finding it impossible to stick to a diet or exercise even when advised by Doctor is making me feel guilty. And this guilt is not doing any good to my mood.
Probably I just need a break. It has been long since I slept peacefully. I would like to take a break from everything, would like to go somewhere I am not disturbed, do as I please and sleep as much as I want.
But all these was not making me feel low yesterday, then why today?! I can’t put my finger on it…
May be just one of those day…